Writing Blockade

Writing each
individual letter
perfection tender
must be present
always

mistake
fix
restart

allowing myself
red handed
knuckles white
to grace the page
once again

mistake
fix
restart

trembling fingers
shaking
slick with the condensation
of failure
letters falling from my grasp

mistake
fix
restart

eyes wide
panting harshly
attempting to smoothly
craft sentences of beauty
must withhold

mistake
fix
restart

pencil tip snaps
again
why won't it work?
I screech
it's painful!

mistake
fix
restart

Hands fisting hair
teeth gritted
shattered graphite
a half written piece
muscles taut with tension

mistake
fix
restart

a scream
I'm a failure
perfection
never attainable
it sickens me

mistake
fix
restart

tears flow now
soaking paper
I know
I will never again
write

mistakes

I am done.